He was deserted as soon as he was brought to this world.

He was abused by his adopted father.

He was betrayed by his beloved girlfriend.

He was shot to protect his girlfriend at her wedding.

He narrowly escaped death, while still couldn't bring his girl back to his side.

He has only got a bullet remained in his brain threatening his life all the time and received a ticket back to his motherland--Korea from his heartless girlfriend.

Then he did go back to Korea where his story goes on.

...

She loved a boy for almost 20 years, but the boy was unaware of her love.

She did everything the boy asked from her, and never refused a thing.

...

She met him when she was lost in that totally strange Australia.

Then she flew back to Korea and that makes two different rountes of lives intersect.

...

He is full of revenge and anger and despair, along with a tender heart.

She feels love for the very first time as she gets to know him little by little.

...

He wants to hold her hands, but there is always misunderstanding between them.

She wishes she could give him more, but somehow causes him more pains.

She makes great efforts to express herself well but that seldom works out.

He never forced her to promise anything for promise doesn't mean anything to his limited life.

...

She smiles to the wall where he always stands as if he were still there.

She stands aside staring at the passing traffic as if he were on the other side of the street ready to rushing to her and holding her into his arms.

She sits days after days on his corner waiting him to come back.

...

He carries her on his back times after times.

...

They sit togerther and say nothing from daytime to midnight. 

They can sense each other's true affection.

...

She wants and trys hard to give.

He wants to take and give, but also shuts himeself from her.

...

They meet by chance, but they are definitely stars written in the sky.

They are fatefully bound.

... 

He dies.

She dies by his gravestone one year later, with one hand holding "him".

And on his gravestone, it says "I'm sorry. I love you."

明天还有最后一门，应该算是经济学里很重要的一门课程——宏观经济。可是稀里糊涂在教室冻了一上午，看了一上午，仅仅结束了两章不到的内容，余下仍有五章在向我龇牙咧嘴，可心里就是紧张不起来。有一种失望的感觉。我知道，只要我认真复习（每个人都跟我说加油，我也和每个人说加油，可是我压根不觉得有那么值得加油的。但总不能将自己这样消极的态度传染给周围的人吧。），肯定能过，而且一定可以漂亮地通过。但是，然而，可然后呢？我觉得两手空空，什么也没抓住。这当然不是别人的错，纯粹在于自己。现在的考试很垃圾，考前到处是资料，到处是范围，到处是猜测的题目，而所考的也大部分是无用的滞后的东西。我知道基础很重要，理论很重要。但我们学了基础学了理论，为的是现实的东西，而现在怎么就此止步呢？那基础理论又有什么用呢？人在健康方面都知道缺什么补什么，怎么学问上就无所谓呢？

即使如此，我还是去看书吧。为GPA着想。*象一个想离婚，但为了孩子还强维系家庭的人*

　　147分，是斯诺克球坛上所能出现的每局单杆最高分。打出单杆满分不仅需要实力，还要有一点运气。单杆满分对于一名斯诺克职业球手来说是具有里程碑意义的，也是球星进化为超级巨星的标志之一。前天凌晨，2007年温布利大师赛，丁俊晖在首轮比赛中以6比3击败汉密尔顿。在第七局比赛中，丁俊晖打出了职业生涯正式比赛首个单杆147分。不到20岁的年纪、实现单杆147分，丁俊晖完成了一个令世界震惊的奇迹。

看毛概（毛泽东思想概论），真是恶死我了。终于明白自己为什么鄙视这门课了：只是单方面的颂扬，只是将已经总结成条的东西陈列出来供学生背诵。真正的毛泽东思想，我们又从中吸取了多少呢？而能为我们运用到实际生活中的又有多少呢？这门课既非科学，又非什么真正意义上的政治，更不是什么伟大的真理。这是纯粹为了控制思想的“洗脑”工具（潜移默化的影响，虽然几乎学习它的人都比较反感它）--难听的说就是现代中国的“愚民政策”。

今天下午终于结束了。昨天背了一上午，看了一中午，郁闷了一下午，傍晚打了几通电话后才又振作，晚上继续努力，今天下午总算完成任务。

i had my eyes open to spend the very last hour, moment, second of 2006.

anyway, nothing special, at least i don't feel anything at this time.

what have i done if i did a summing-up of 2006, i could hardly put anything on the final list.

what am i going to do in the new year?

the answer is really blowin' in the chilly winter wind.

i don't know why, guess i am a pessimistic person-easily get down & feel low.

still can't figue out the reason.

i waited and waited for a call, but nothing turned up yet.

i am really afraid of waiting in blank unknowing the answer of the future.

please shed light even a thread of dim light on me.

hope tomorrow will be a sunny day with big blue crystal sky.

 

everytime i hope you'd be my side, but you never will.

i'm so confused.

hard to hold on.

want to scream.

want to let go.

 

you never will know.

 

won't you try to know me?

won't you try a little bit?

won't you...